As part of my Advent Calendar project, I am presenting excerpts from my actual teenage diaries!

Let me tell you about a Most Eventful Day. Backstage during the play, Danny kissed me, as in … um … french kissed me. I was a LITTLE stupored. Later, the Schullers had the cast party, and Mark J, AS USUAL, started following me around like a puppy, which drove me crazy. Danny and Mark pretend-dueled over me, which was funny but weird because I think Danny wants something from me that I don’t think I am ready to give. Then, oh my god, DANE walked in. The 3 guys in the world who are conflicting with my emotions, all in one room. Danny disappeared with that slut Carol C, Mark went off to get high. Dane was VERY nice when I told him I was made of fool of. He sat by me and was very sweet. Oh dear.

[coda: nothing more ever happened with mark nor danny (though danny will always hold the honor of being the first boy to make out with me). the following february, dane showed real interest in me for a short period of time, culminating in a kiss — the highest point of my teenage existence. he then, basically, ignored me forever after, until my crush ended at age 18.]