just me
I’m suffering (and have been suffering) from a certain amount of the funk, of the blues and the blahs. Too much (and not enough) going on in my life. There are a variety of things weighing me down, not the least of which the certain feeling I’m feeling as I muddle about in these Middle Ages. As the insightful Eden from Fussy twittered:
Ah, so this is what REAL midlife crisis feels like. That stuff before was just Braxton-Hicks midlife crisis.
Perhaps this economy thing is making my future feel starker than usual.
And perhaps I’m feeling the regular Impending Holiday Yuck earlier than ever this year.
Or perhaps I’m getting a really early headstart on the Yuck my next birthday digit is making me feel: I’ll be marking the halfway-point through a decade that, so far, has been a carnival ride — terrifying, weird, shaky, fun, odd, disappointing.
I don’t usually like to share my darker moments with the world at large, but this is it, this is me, sometimes.
But I’ll be okay and so will you. What helps a lot is the scene, below, from The Groove Tube. I wish I could live life with the sheer abandon that he does during “Just You, Just Me”:
OK, I decided the only way to travel from now on is to dance and sing down the street. I hear you, woman. Winter blahs, shock of the falling economy and LIFE! It gets to you and it sucks. I am glad you feel comfortable to share the not-so-perky moments here as well. Sending a bucket full of internet hugs and kisses.
3 gals in sf are watching totoro and thinking of you. 1 of us is in her sleeping bag on livingroom floor-looks comfy. Here’s to bearing thru the doldrums
Hooray! I love the lady trying to eat her lunch as he sings to her and his own reflection!
This is a really tough time in the world and I think it makes everything that much more yuckier in our home/personal lives. And… there is so much love for you in this world my dear! Feel that sadness, let it all come out. I think it is very liberating to hear of other people’s emotional struggles. It helps me feel less alone in my dark, shadowy valley of sadness and fear. Release it into the stratosphere! Share it with the world and then put your pink suit on, pick up your briefcase and dance, dance, dance!